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Monday October 22, 2007 (10:42am) “If dreams are like movies then memories are films about ghosts” (while listening to Jambi by Tool) “Hold your light, Eleven. Lead me through each gentle step, by step, By inch, by loaded memory. I'll move to heal, as soon as pain allows So we can reunite, and both move on together.” -Tool (Jimmy) I went to see an orthopedic last week and got some interesting news about my shoulder. According to the doctor, my right rotator cuff is only partially torn at best and does not require any type of surgery. But even though it's not really torn, he said the shoulder area was irritated and inflamed. He also said that there were tiny "bumps" (little pockets of fluid) inside the shoulder and that could be making things uncomfortable too. And lastly, he said that he did see signs of avascular necrosis in the shoulder, and that could also be a source of pain. He said that the AVN isn't bad enough to require surgery, so there's not much that can be done about it right now. So he gave me a cortizone shot in the arm, gave me some low impact stretches to do, and told me to come back in a month if it's not better. I'm relieved that I don't need surgery like I thought I might, but now I'm worried about the AVN and having chronic pain in my shoulder that never quite goes away. The good news is that the shoulder does feel better, which is great. But it's still not normal and I'm worried that at any moment it could flare up and start really hurting again. And, of course, I'm also worried that the AVN will get so bad that I'll need to have my shoulder replaced. And I really hope it doesn't come to that. That's all I got. I could go on, but I'm just really not in the right mindset for blogging right now. Too much going on in the brain. Maybe tomorrow. Later, Kyle
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